I used to think .. “It doesn’t matter if i have flaws, i’m a good friend”.. i always knew i was a good friend. I’m somebody to trust, im fun, i would always be there for my friends, didn’t matter what i was doing or how i felt… I always been a closed person if it came to me, i had times i was more open tho, but in general pretty closed… but i did tell how i felt, or what i was going through. I saw/spoke (to) my friends almost daily, spoke to my “online” friends all the time..
But lately, i feel like i changed too much, to be able to say “It doesn’t matter if i have flaws, i’m a good friend”… I don’t think i am anymore. I just think i have flaws. I feel lonely. And even when i try to be there, i am not, i don’t feel like talking a lot. I’m closed more than i ever was.. even when i try to talk about my feelings, i can’t.. I feel so many things and i have no idea how i should put it in words.
I used to try to make my friends feel better, and now, i think.. i don’t.
A few of you will read this… And i just wanna say,
I miss you.
And i am sorry for not being there, I’m sorry for being a bad friend.
I love you, and i can only hope you not gonna give up on me.